What is it about being? Being alive, being a father, being a good person, being a man. I often wonder about life. I haven't felt alive in many years. I know that I'm alive but I haven't felt like it. I exsist. I'm here but I'm really already gone. I need to feel that spark that makes life worth living. The desire to greet each day happily. Looking forward to what may come next. I use to have that but lately life is so mundane that I don't really feel alive. I exsist but am not living.
God help me!